Get it Right.

Without April right now, I would come unglued.

I feel slaughtered. I want to explain how I feel but the finger just gets pointed back to me. I have a target on my back. I don't want to argue. Or yell, or be yelled at.

Entering into tomorrow without the support and love that I need, I don't know how to do this. It's actually not even tomorrow I'm worried about. Continuing on at all like this with my relationships falling apart. My doctor told me I wouldn't survive without healthy relationships. I don't have a single one.

I wish I was still following Jesus with a candle in my hand singing with over a hundred other devoted Catholics. I wish my senses were still overwhelmed with incense.

I just want to disappear.

I love Glee.

"Get it Right"
What have I done?
I wish I could run,
Away from this ship going under
Just trying to help
Hurt everyone else
Now I feel the weight of the world is on my shoulders


What can you do when your good isn't good enough
And all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions
Keep making a mess of things,
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me to get it right, to get it right?


Can I start again, with my faith shaken?
'Cause I can't go back and undo this.
I just have to stay and face mistakes,
But if I get stronger and wiser, I'll get through this

What can you do when your good isn't good enough
And all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions
Keep making a mess of things,
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me to get it right, to get it right?


So if I throw up my fists, throw a punch in the air,
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair
Yeah, I'll send down a wish and I'll send up a prayer
And then finally someone will see how much I care


What can you do when your good isn't good enough
And all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions
Keep making a mess of things,
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me to get it right, to get it right?