I'm aching with a tormenting pain. I'm yelling at myself to stop crying but what's the use. Here I am again in the apartment crying alone. I want to scream. I want to curse. I want to write indescribable hideous things that make no sense except to me. I'm infuriated with my life. I want to tear at my skin and watch my insides rot away. But that's just stupidity. Insanity. A person that I used to be that I no longer want to be. Oh but I still am. Every day. Thoughts. Temptations. Desires. Every damn day.
I hate living with me.
I miss Jamie. I miss Utah. I miss Meg and Clare. I shouldn't be here. It was almost like when we crossed that state line I couldn't breathe.
I can't breathe.
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